Tears on a Pillow

It has been weeks since my mother’s passing. I know it’s somehow not acceptable by social standards that I am still shedding tears. But, it’s just that I had this special connection with her, that up until now I cannot fathom that she really is gone.

Last night, I had another dream of my mother. Since her passing, I’ve had many dreams of her. Mostly were happy moments, the moments we have had together as a family or the moments we could have had if she was still here. But last night was different, it was more vivid than usual. It was like she really was there and I fit perfectly in the scene. This time, however, her mood was serious. Her words went this way,

NJ, anak, I am departing the Earth to be at peace with our Father in Heaven. Thank you for everything you have done for your brothers and the whole family. I am so proud and thankful. I love you all. Pass on my love to your Tatay and brothers Emmanuel, and Angelo. Remember that I will always be with you in spirit.

It has finally dawned on me that I should let her go. We should all let her spirit free. I said my goodbyes and said a prayer to the Lord, before reality came back to my senses and…

 

I woke up…

..with Tears on a Pillow..

…Tears on my Pillow.

 

©NJ Villafuerte

 

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an AWESOME post

Today, I spent half my day chilling at my home: turning the audio systems on, enjoying a bag of chips, browsing the web for interesting blogs. Everything was as boring as it is until I stumbled upon the inactive blog of my best friend. Of course, these kinds of trivial things intrigued me, and seeing that I have nothing left to do in the next two hours, I set down on reading most of his articles.

 Mostly his articles were your average blog articles, until you notice that the word awesome has been used more than necessary. Yes, he was mostly writing on how to upkeep an awesome life. Despite these trivial things I noticed, I still find certain interesting facts about him that can really be applied into real life. Let me lay it down here:

HAVING FRIENDS IS AWESOME

This is something I have realized only lately. No man can live alone; he always needs someone to be with in times of trouble through and through. Consider yourself very lucky if you find a buddy that would always be with you: share stories with you, give you ample pieces of advice, or simply be there to support you. Remember that whatever happens, you always have these kinds of people who will stand by in all cases, and help you maintain the AWESOME self that you are.

DRAMA IS SO UN-AWESOME

“The time for men to watch soaps have come and gone.” (Jabines, 2009)

I know that drama is an unnecessary evil in modern society but don’t let it make you succumb. (bitch, please) It is okay to hurt over a broken relationship, or a simple bust, but it so un-AWESOME if you let this drama take over your life and act like some leading man in the most dramatic soap opera ever in the next weeks. Remember that you have other people who care for you and let them be the safeguards to help you uphold the AWESOME reputation you carry.

TEENAGERS ARE MORE AWESOME THAN ADULTS

A lot of adults tell you that there are things that you don’t know still because you’re young. Well, we say, you lot can’t be AWESOME cause you’re too old. Don’t let the adults get into you. Let them rant all they want just always keep in mind that they can’t all be awesome as you are. They may be omniscient and all but bah! You know how boring intelligent people are. So don’t let them get into you and just stay AWESOME that they can never be.

be AWESOME

I hope that these things I learned will rub off on me and let us all be the awesome people that we are. Don’t let all the drama and sadness of reality gobble you, keep being AWESOME!

P.S. Credits to justjacjab.blogspot.com for awesome inspirations.

©NJ Villafuerte

Ang Propesiya at ang Buhay ng Tao

Welcome to my First Tagalog Blog Post! 🙂

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Sa Bibliya ng mga Kristiyano, marami ang nasasaad na pamamaraan ng katapusan ng sangkatauhan. Nasusulat, “ang katapusan ng sandaigdigan ay magulo, baabgsak ang mga industriyang itinayo ng mga tao; magkakaroon ng kaguluhang pampulitkia at babalutin ang daigdig ng init at tubig.” Kung papansining mabuti, ang daigdig ngayon ay tila nagsasakatuparan nan g mga isinasaad ng mga propesiya.

Gumuguho ang mga sistemang piskal ng mga makakapangyarihang bansa tulad ng Amerika at mga bansa sa Europa.

Nagkakaroon ng mga rebelyon at kaguluhan political sa mga bansa sa Arabian Peninsula.

Umiinit na ng husto ang mundo at binabaha na ng mga natutunaw na yelo dahil sa global warming.

Guguho ang mga Sistemang Piskal.

Taong 2008 nang magdeklara ang mga kumpanya sa Wall Street, New York ng bankruptcy. Ang Wall Street ay ang kapital pangekonomiya at piskal ng pinakamakapangyarihang bansa sa daigdig, ang Estados Unidos. Karamihan sa mga pinakamalaking kumpanya sa daigdig ay ditto itinayo. Mga kumpanyang tulad ng JP Morgan & Chase ay mga kumpanyang pandaigdigan na kumikita ng bilyun-bilyong dolyares. Kung kaya’t ang kanilang pagdeklara ng bankruptcy ay isang malaking dagok sa sistemang piskal ng daigdig.

Ano nga ba ang tunay na kwento?

Ayon sa mga kumpanyang ito, mga utang na hindi pa nababayaran ng kanilang mga kliyente nila ang isa sa mga pinakamalaking dahilan ng kanilang pagkalugi. Dahil puro labas ng lsalapi ang ginagawa ng mga kumpanyang ito, bumaba ang kanilang kapital. Wala na silang kita sapagkat puro utang at hypothetical na salapi na lamang ang bumubuhay sa yamang piskal ng mga kumpanyang ito. Nang magsimulang hindi magbayad ang mga kliyente ng mga kumpanyang ito, napilitan silang magtinda ng assets: mga bahay at lupa na iniutanga kanila, mga stocks at cash bonds na kanilang pagmamay-ari ay napilitang ipagbili sa pandaigdigang merkado.Sa dami ng ari-ariang ipinapagbili, ay bumaba ang market value ng mga assets na ito. Simpleng ekonomiks: Kapag napakataas ng suplay ngunit sobrang baba naman ng demand, sigurado, bababa ang market value ng mga ganitong uri ng produkto. At siya ngang nagsimula ng pagguho ng maraming kumpanya sa Estados Unidos.

Kaakibat ng pagbagsak ng mga kumpanyang ito ay ang pagbasak ng ekonomiya ng Estados Unidos. Sa kadahilanang nakasalalay ng husto ang ekonomiya ng Amerika sa mga investors nito para sa kita, ang pagbagsak ng Wall Street ay bumaldado ng husto sa sistemang piskal ng Amerika. Bumaba ang halaga ng dolyar sa palitang pandaigdigan, napilitang magrelease ang US Federal Reserve ng malaking halaga bilang bailout para sustentohan ang mga serbisyong pambansa ng Amerika tulad ng edukasyon, military, serbisyong medical, transportasyon, imprastruktura, at iba pa.

Dahil makapangyarihang piskal ang Estados Unidos sa sandaigdigan, ang mga kapwa nitong sistemang ekonomiko sa ibang bahagi ng daigdig ay naapektuhan din. Bumagsak ang mga malalaking ekonomiya sa Europa, Tsina, Japan, Australia at iba pa.

Ito na nga ba ang sinasabi ng propesiya?

Kahit ano pang lakas ng kapangyarihang piskal ng Amerika, ay bumagsak pa rin to. Hindi kaya pahiwatig ito na may mas mataas pang kapangyarihan na nagdidikta ng ating kapalaran? Maaaring siya ang isinasaad ng Bibliyang Kristiyano. At tayo’y binabalaan na magtuwid na ng landas kung hindi ay may mas maraming pang kababalaghan ang gigimbal sa daigdig.

Magaaway-away ang mga tao sa pulitika.

Balitang-balita ang mga kaguluhang nagaganap ngayon sa mga bansa sa Arabian Peninsula. Mga mamamayan ng iba’t-ibang bansa sa Middle East at North Africa. Tinawag itong Arab Spring, isang malawakang kilos-protesta ng mga mamamayan na nagnanais na pababain ang mga diktador na gumigipit sa kanila ng ilang dekada na.

Paano nga ba nagsimula ang lahat?

Nagsimula ang protesta sa pagsusunog ni Mohammed Bouazizi ng sarili sa Tunisia bilang pagpoprotesta laban sa korapsyon at pagmamalupit ng mga pulis. Ang balitang ito ay kumalat sa mga social networks tulad ng Twitter na naging mitsa ng isang malawakang kilos protesta sa Tunisia. Naging matagumpay ang mga rebolusyon sa Tunisia, napaalis ng bansa ang pangulong si Zine El Abidine Ben Ali na nagtago sa bansang Saudi Arabia.

Matapos ang rebolusyon sa Tunisia, nagkaroon ng mga kaguluhang pampulitika sa Algeria, Jordan, Egypt at Yemen ng sabay-sabay. Naging matagumpay ang mga rebolusyon sa Ehipto nang mapatalsik nila sa pwesto si Hosni Mubarak, ang kanilang pangulo ng tatlumpung taon. Dahil sa mga pagkilos na matagumpay tulad nito, dumami na ng husto ang mga pagkilos sa Arabian Peninsula. Sa takot ng ibang pinuno, nagdeklara na sila ng intensyong bumaba; tulad ni Omar Al-Bashir, pangulo ng Sudan at ni Nouri al-Maliki, punong ministro ng Iraq.

Ngunit ang pinakamarahas sa lahat ay ang digmaang sibil sa Libya, laban sa pagitan ng mga ka-alyansa ng pamahalaan at ng mga rebelled. Si Muammar al-Gaddafi, ang pinuno ng Libya ay ayaw bumaba sa puwesto at ginamitan ng dahas-militar ang mga nagrerebelde. Dahil sa kalupitan ni Gaddafi, napilitan ang ibang bansa na mangialam sa mga kaganapan. Binomba ng Estados Unidos at ng ibang bansa sa Europa ang mga kampo ni Gaddafi sa Libya. Naging madugo ang rebolusyong ito, maraming buhay ang ibinuwis at matapos ang ilang buwan ng digmaang sibil ay nasakop na rin ng mga rebelled ang Tripoli at halos lahat ng Libya at kasalukuyang nagtatago ang diktador na si Muammar al-Gaddafi.

Ito na nga kaya ang sinasabi nilang digmaang pulitikal na sisira sa atin?

Ang mga kaguluhang ito ay maaaring pahiwatig na ng mga rebelasyon ng Bibliya. Isa na nga kaya itong patunay ng mga katagang, “maglalaban-laban ang mga tao, magkakagulo ang sistemang pampulitika ng mga bansa, guguho ang mga pamahalaan.” Tunay nga kayang tayo ay nalalapit na sa wakas ng sandaigdigan tulad ng naayon sa Bibliya?

Iinit ang daigdig at lalamunin ito ng dagat.

Napapanahon ngayon ang kakaibang pagbabago sa panahon at klima ng sandaigdigan. Maraming environmentalists tulad ni Al Gore na ang nagbabala ng mga sakuna na maaaring makuha mula sa pagbabago ng klima. Mula sa pagtaas ng temperatura ng daigdig hanggang sa malawakang mga pagbabaha.

Ano nga ba ang naging dahilan ng climate change?

Maraming dahilan ng pagbabago ng klima, may mga natural na dahilan, meron din naming likhang tao. Isa sa mga natural na dahilan ay ang Thermohaline circulation o ang pagbabago ng direksyon ng mga alon sa karagatan. Ang mga pagbabagong ito sa karagatan ay nakaka-apekto sa mga hangin na siyang nagiging sanhi ng pagbabago ng klima.

Mayroon ding mga sanhi na likha ng mga pagbabago sa kalawakan tulad ng orbital variations at solar output variations. Ang pagbabago sa orbit ng daigdig ay nakakaapekto sa klima. Kapag tumabingi ito, nagbabago ang distribusyon ng enerhiya mula sa araw. Ang mga pagbabagong ito ay nagpapainit o nagpapalamig sa klima ng daigdig. Katulad rin nito ang solar variations; kapag may mga pagbabago sa mga reaksyon ng enerhiya sa araw, ay nagbabago rin ang temperature ng daigdig depende sa dami ng enerhiyang tinatanggap mula sa araw.

Maaaring maraming mga natural na sanhi ng pagbabago ng klima, ngunit alam ng marami na tao ang pangunahing sanhi ng global warming at pagbabago ng klima. Ang mga teknolohiya ng sangkatauhan ang nagbubuga ng CO2, isang gas na nagpapalala ng pagbabago sa klima. Hindi pinapalabas ng gas na ito ang init ng daigdig pabalik sa kalawakan kaya ay tumataas ng husto ang temperatura ng daigdig.

Ano nga ba ang implikasyon ng climate change?

Unang-una sa lahat ay ang pag-init ng daigdig. Tumataas ng tumataas ang temperature ng daigdig, umiinit ang kapaligiran. Ang pag-init na ito ay maraming implikasyong sukbit.

Masama para sa ilang hayop at halaman ang pag-init ng daigdig. Dahil sanay ang mga hayop at halaman sa medyo malamig na klima, ang pag-init nito ay makakaapekto sa pamumuhay ng mga organismong ito. Mayroong mga uri ng hayop at halaman ang hindi kayang mamuhay sa mainit na klima.

Sakit ng tao sa sobrang init ay isa rin sa mga implikasyon ng global warming. Ang bilang ng mga kaso ng heat stroke, dehydration at iba pa ay tumataas na rin.

Ang pinakamasaklap na implikasyon ng global warming ay ang pagtaas ng sea level. Dahil sa sobrang init ay nagkakaroon na ng pagtunaw ng mga yelo sa mga polar caps at snow mountains. Ang pagtunaw ng yelo na ito ay nagdadala ng mga pagbabago sa sea level. Tataas ang sea level sa pagtunaw nito, at kaakibat nito ang mga malawakang pagbabaha.

Salitang naisabuhay.

Dahil sa patuloy na pagragasa ng global warming at pagbabago ng klima, ay hindi malayong magkatotoo ang propesiya ng Bibliya na iinit ang daigdig at malulunod sa malawakang pagbabaha. Kung hindi magbabago ang mga tao ay maaaring sa loob ng dekada ay uminit ng husto ang daigdig, matunaw lahat ng yelo na magdudulot ng pagtataas ng sea level at tuluyang pagkawasak ng daigdig.

Ang propesiya at ang buhay ng tao.

Maaaring hindi natin ramdam lahat ngunit ang mundo ay dahan-dahan nang nagbabago. Maaaring ang katapusan at wakas ng ating sibilisasyon ay tunay ngang nalalapit na. Hindi ba’t kakaiba na nagkataong nagsabay-sabay ang mga pangyayaring ito? At na ang lahat ng ito ay nasasaad ng mga propesiya sa Bibliya? Baka nga siguro, kapag tayo ay hindi magbabago, an gating mundo ay tuluyan ng maglalaho.

Armageddon: Which will it be?

-Makabagong Nostradamus

NJ Villafuerte

The Epitome of a Heartbreak

“Do you believe in LOVE,” three days ago, I was one of the many blind people who believed in this preposterous word.

But now, it all seems like a BIG JOKE.

Few years back, I’ve stumbled upon a pretty lady in a private school here in the metro who turned out to be one of the people who will play a big part in my life. We had fun for four long years; we enjoyed each other’s company; there even came a time when I thought she was the one.  But reality slapped me on the face, it’s not real love, it’s something you call childish infatuation. It was like reality was a friend who told me, “Dude, WAKE UP and GROW UP.” She broke up with me due to very childish reasons.

I let myself be overcome by depression the whole night. My only companion was a bottle of whisky while I cried my heart out.  I woke up with a sore body and a bleeding heart, and the sun peeked through the windows telling me, “Wake up NJ, your dream is over.”

Few weeks later, I realized that her so-called rationality of our break-up was really another man. I saw her with another guy at our favorite restaurant at Tomas Morato. After realizing that, I swore to myself that I will never be fooled by lady’s love ever again.

I stood up and put my best foot forward. “Life must go on,” I told myself. However, in less than a year after, I found another girl who captivated my weak heart. She was one of a kind I told myself. Her whole composure was something that stood out from a large crowd.

I stood up to her and told her the way I felt. She reciprocated or so it seems. We had our times together. Good times in fact. We do dinners together, stayed up late for homeworks and projects.

But all the same it was a big fantasy that aims to destroy my intrepid personality, she tore me apart. She told me that it wasn’t love, it was just friendship and my pitiful heart misrepresented it. I let despair consume me.  Tears fell, a heart bled in depression.

However, after that event, I simply just didn’t learn how to hold back. Within a month, I met another girl in a convention, who really captivated me. And this time was different, she was drop-dead gorgeous, remarkably skilled and intellectual, and mature enough to handle situations like a real adult would do.

I courted with all my heart and won her love fair and square. We dated for quite a while, but I never knew that it would all end so easily. A minor issue breaks us apart. Despite the fact that I have tried to go all the way to their house in the south, it all was in vain. I was not able to resuscitate the dying flame.

Now, I am left alone with my heart in shreds, my emotions of grief. I bleed alone in the corner of my room due to emotional attacks.

Hitherto, I ask myself the question, “What really is LOVE?” and “How do you Mend a Broken Heart?”

FOREVER ALONE. 😐

Geography Matters

One of the highly misconceived fields of study in the Philippine academe is the study of Geography. Most individuals relay geography only as the science of map making. When you even ask a random person on the street, “Do you know what geography is?” They would answer, “Isn’t that the study of making maps?” then would follow questions such as, “Do you really need a college degree for that?” and “Isn’t it that even little boys know how to draw maps?” etc. It is a clear illustration of the outright fact that the common society are not in any way aware of the complexities of geography.

Geography: The Queen of the Sciences

To begin with, geography is not your average high school subject where you study the nominal or absolute location of this and that. Geography extends to the human patterns that occur on the area stated for inquiry. This gives way to the various fields of geography branching out from Physical Geography and Human Geography. Physical Geography as the name implies is the study of the physical attributes of a certain location, including its topography, climate, etc. The fields of Human Geography, on the other hand, reflect more complex fields of study. Under Human Geography are Cultural, Political, Economic Geography, etc.

What most average people don’t see is that Geography is not just a dandy course on locating stuff on the surface of the earth. Geography gives its constituents even more than that. It helps them understand more of the world and how it really revolves and the life around its surface as a whole. It gives geographers and geography majors alike a chance to be able to see the world in a variably different perspective.

Hitherto, we must not underestimate the field of Geography. Since, like other fields of study who proudly states that they know and analyze things that make the world as it is, Geography also boasts of the fact that it gives everyone the real picture on how the world really is from various perspectives of location and surficial living.

P.S. To know more about Geography here in the Philippines, check out the website of the University of the Philippines Diliman Department of Geography at http://geog.upd.edu.ph/

 

©NJ Villafuerte

DISEASE of the URBAN GENERATION

The worst disease are the ones that we are not even aware of it.

It is conceded that the generation today especially the city folks are having various problematic traits. There is irresponsibility, insensitiveness, sloth, only to name a few names on the long list. But all these traits have one thing in common. They all have been badgering the society since Mankind Day 1. But one trait begs to differ. This trait was born together with technology. This problematic trait was bornIt is conceded that the generation today especially the city folks are having various problematic traits. There is irresponsibility, insensitiveness, sloth, only to name a few names on the long list. But all these traits have one thing in common. They all have been badgering the society since Mankind Day 1. But one trait begs to differ. This trait was born together with technology. This problematic trait was born the same day the camera was invented. V.A.N.I.T.Y.

Yes, a lot of very vain people were born together with the camera. the same day the camera was invented. At first, the society is not bothered with this problem for the people of the Early Tech Age were not much addicted to taking shots of themselves or whatsoever. But these past few years, the illness [vanity] has gone to its extremities or so I have heard. Together with the worsening of the illness was the birth of new categories of people i.e. jejemons with all their signature poses. Also, there are now the ultra-VAIN people.

People especially those who own cameras take tons of pictures of themselves. One face, one scene takes a hundred pictures due to different poses, different angles, as they defend. This kind of situation is very disturbing.  They have become more than a fad actually. The worst part is that some people don’t even realize they are already incurring this disease. They would only know when someone would stand up to them and say, “Hey, why are you so vain?” and of course it would come as a surprise to them that yes they haven’t noticed yet.

So why did I write this article about vanity? Simple. I was a victim. I never realized that I use my webcam and my camera more than necessary. Now, I learned a lesson, vanity is no simple trait, you don’t even see it coming. Hope everyone would also be more careful next time to avoid embarrassment.

Me and Vanity

©NJ Villafuerte

Sound of 2011

It’s not about the money, We don’t need your money, We just wanna make the world dance, Forget about the price tag

-Jessie J. (Price Tag)

As 2011 comes into its midway, it is about time to recheck who has been winning the top charts.

Music has been a very vital part of the society especially in this very modern set-up. iPods, mp3 players, music cellphones, sound systems are the “in” things today. This is enough to show that the society is hooked to music. Even headsets now have varieties from beats by dr. dre, and skull candies to wireless headsets and bluetooth dongles.

Jessie J.

Above is a photo of Jessie J., a fresh artist and is currently deemed by BBC as the Sound of 2011.

Up-and-coming pop singer Jessie J is number one on the BBC Sound of 2011 list, which was compiled by asking 160 influential music critics, broadcasters and bloggers to name their favourite new acts.

Here are some of Jessie J’s goals for the next 12 months: have a number one album, go on a headline tour, launch a perfume, set up charities and youth clubs around London, write a musical, do a duet with Leona Lewis and write Britney Spears’ next hit single.

The 22-year-old is pretty well placed to have a go.

She has already co-written a US hit song, scored her own top 30 single in the UK, starred on the West End stage, been named the Brit Awards’ Critics’ Choice and now come top of the BBC Sound of 2011 list.

Not bad considering she is under doctors’ orders to take it easy as a result of an irregular heartbeat and a minor stroke four years ago, after which doctors could not guarantee she would sing or walk properly again.

“It’s one of those things that makes you think, OK, life isn’t guaranteed for anybody,” she says. “So it’s time for me to turn this on and really do it justice.”

-Youngs, I. (BBC Entertainment)

Jessie J presented us songs that were reflective of the truths of this world, Price Tag, Who you are, to name a few. And of course, the beat and fast pace is there as well which went well with pop style. Truly, Jessie J is a promising star and may indeed be deemed as the Sound of 2011

©NJ Villafuerte